I’ve been going through the Psalms, in no particular order, and today, I rested on Psalm 8.
O LORD, our Lord,how majestic is your name in all the earth!You have set your glory above the heavens.Out of the mouth of babies and infants,you have established strength because of your foes,to still the enemy and the avenger.When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers,the moon and the stars, which you have set in place,what is man that you are mindful of him,and the son of man that you care for him? Yet you have made him a little lower than the heavenly beings and crowned him with glory and honor.You have given him dominion over the works of your hands; you have put all things under his feet,all sheep and oxen,and also the beasts of the field,the birds of the heavens, and the fish of the sea, whatever passes along the paths of the seas.O LORD, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth!
I used to be the type of person who went in guns-blazing. I was honest and bold to a fault.
I told everyone what I thought.
I was vulnerable with my time and energy.
I always told the guy how I felt.
It wasn’t that I was brazen or cocky. I thought that God would always respond the way I thought He would. But nothing ever did work out the way I thought it would.
I got chastised for being too honest.
The time and effort I put into things never produced fruit.
The guy always said no.
It wasn’t until I got to this Psalm that I realized that I live paralyzed by fear.
Because I forget God is mindful of me.
The definition of mindful is “to be conscious or aware of something.”
God is conscious and aware of what I need, what I want. He answers prayers I don’t pray and blesses and takes away.
He allowed people in my life who were hypercritical of me to teach me how to communicate with grace.
He closed doors and stifed opportunities so that I would walk through the doors He willed.
Every guy who said no was a blessing in disguise. It saved me from committing to the wrong man, which for as loyal as I am, I definitely would have married the wrong man by now.
The truth is I cannot say I serve God and accept only the good things as blessings. The bad things are meant to edify me too. I cannot live in fear of following the leading of the Holy Spirit because I am scared of what God will allow to happen in my life.
What am I, that God should care of my comings and goings?