Choice

I’ve always wanted the choice taken away from me.

I don’t want to pick my job. Where I live. My husband.

I want God to remove all options from me so I don’t have to choose.

I thought I was being holy. I thought I was being wise. Isn’t it full surrender to release any opportunity to make a choice?

But I’ve realized that to try to manipulate God in such a way that you have no choices is actually super immature. It shows you don’t trust that God is for you.

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All the other prophets were prophesying the same thing. “Attack Ramoth Gilead and be victorious,” they said, “for the Lord will give it into the king’s hand.”

The messenger who had gone to summon Micaiah said to him, “Look, the other prophets without exception are predicting success for the king. Let your word agree with theirs, and speak favorably.”

But Micaiah said, “As surely as the Lord lives, I can tell him only what the Lord tells me.”

When he arrived, the king asked him, “Micaiah, shall we go to war against Ramoth Gilead, or not?”

“Attack and be victorious,” he answered, “for the Lord will give it into the king’s hand.”

The king said to him, “How many times must I make you swear to tell me nothing but the truth in the name of the Lord?”

Then Micaiah answered, “I saw all Israel scattered on the hills like sheep without a shepherd, and the Lord said, ‘These people have no master. Let each one go home in peace.’”

The king of Israel said to Jehoshaphat, “Didn’t I tell you that he never prophesies anything good about me, but only bad?”

Micaiah continued, “Therefore hear the word of the Lord: I saw the Lord sitting on his throne with all the multitudes of heaven standing around him on his right and on his left. And the Lord said, ‘Who will entice Ahab into attacking Ramoth Gilead and going to his death there?’

“One suggested this, and another that. Finally, a spirit came forward, stood before the Lord and said, ‘I will entice him.’

“‘By what means?’ the Lord asked.

“‘I will go out and be a deceiving spirit in the mouths of all his prophets,’ he said.

“‘You will succeed in enticing him,’ said the Lord. ‘Go and do it.’

“So now the Lord has put a deceiving spirit in the mouths of all these prophets of yours. The Lord has decreed disaster for you.” – 1 Kings 22:12-23

The first time I read this, I was thrown off. Isn’t wise counsel supposed to be truthful? How could God allow something like this to happen?

I read it again two years later with fresh eyes. Is it possible that the advice we have the most disdain for is the most likely to be from God?

When God speaks to me, He rarely says the things I want to hear. I would also add that He rarely tells us where to go or what decision to make. He invites us into a relationship with Him to make the hard decisions. Some of the best conversations I’ve had with God have been the ones where I hash out the details and my feelings and through His word, He shows me the path to take.

I’m not discounting wise counsel. All I’m saying is if the first person you turn to is a friend or spouse, there’s your idol. Wise counsel should confirm what God has already been telling you, not be a new revelation. But if you go to another person first and then God, it’s harder to discern His voice.

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I’m pretty sure God wouldn’t tell you specifics about when things are going to happen or even who you’re going to marry.

I nodded. He keeps telling me that it’s not my job to know, just to trust. He’s saying to trust Him, that He knows what I want more than I do. 

That sounds like God. My friend responded.

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