I knew I was dreaming.
I looked out the window of the house I was standing in and calmly told my friends, I know I’m dreaming but God’s trying to show me something.
I turned my attention back to the scene at hand. A chair sat in the middle of the room. I needed to get my makeup done.
I clutched the dress I was supposed to wear in my hand. I need a minute. I need to collect my thoughts.
I made my way to the main room. Chairs were in lines, audience-style. The altar was lined with white flowers. I sat in one of the front chairs, clutching that dress.
My friend kneeled in front of me, smiling. Look, they’re coming.
I looked up. People were making their way into the building, dressed up and carrying gifts. They were all people from my past. All here to support me.
I was overwhelmed with gratitude. They started to make their way to their seats. There were well over a hundred people, all here for me.
Okay, I’m ready to get ready.
I had my makeup done and put on my dress. I was ready. Finally.
I asked to see the groom and woke up.
I’ve had three other dreams of my wedding.
The first one, I was angry.
The second, I was unprepared.
The third, I was scared.
And this one, I was grateful.
In each dream, I knew I was dreaming but that God was trying to show me something.
I woke up this morning and burst into tears. The only thing I could say was thank you. Thank you so much.
I don’t know who I’m going to marry. I never get to see the groom. That’s kind of the fun part, right?
I asked God what He wanted to show me in His word and He pointed me to 1 Peter 1:6-9.
In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls.
I know ultimately that marriage is not the goal of life but of everything God has worked on me in, He has dealt with my utter disdain of the subject probably the longest.
I can see the progression in my dreams.
I’m ready. Finally.